Well here we are again. I’m well on my way of being considerate daily of my goals and resolutions for this year. They’re pretty simple, and personal. But they all contribute to being a happier, smarter, more inspired, healthier, creative person. Last year was difficult for many reasons, and it seems like a consensus out there that we’re all thankful for a blank slate. But I grew exponentially in 2014, especially professionally. I won’t forget this. But I’m ready to make life round – fill all the spaces and moments with experiences. Burst at the seams….not in a stressful way. Relaxation is a part of the plan. But take advantage of every opportunity. Do more. See more. Be bigger.
A few simple things will help me feel this fullness. Move, Dance, Reach. I don’t expect to transform into the athletic dancer I was 10 years ago, but I don’t have to. There’s a middle ground and I think it will make me very happy. Going to dance class my favorite non-workout workout. Stretch every night. Plan for yoga. Run down streets you’ve never been down on warm days. Leap, reach, turn, twist. Remind your body that it knows how to be more than scrunched up in front of a computer or asleep. Seek creativity, find my own. Cook more, visit museums, write, find new blogs to explore, get back on pinterest, find a new coffee shop, learn what makes them special, make breakfast on the weekends, draw, read a novel, read about business, connect other creative people, choreograph, make pasta from scratch. This is not for work; it’s for myself. But I can’t wait to see how all of this will impact my creativity at work too. See the world. It’s time to go exploring. I’m taking a break from vacations doing nothing and ready to start moving and seeing things. Weekend trips to NYC and Charleston, a birthday trip to Paris, a little West Coast exploring, the beach and the mountains and the city and foreign countries. Time to just go. Undoubtedly this will help with resolution number two. It’s decided then. Now where should I go? Who’s coming with?
Ok let’s chat about dreams coming true. A little over a month ago, I spent the day with Joey Fatone filming an episode of My Family Recipe Rocks. My episode airs this Sunday 5/25 at 8:30pm on the Live Well Network. Find out where you can watch – I hope you do!
Even several weeks later, I can’t quite describe the day. It was everything. It’s JOEY. I’ve spent so many many hours of my life thinking about him. It was so strange to talk to real life Joey about NSYNC Joey. They were the same person and different person at the same time. Does that make sense?
Look! We hugged, we touched, he was on his phone which has JC’s number in it, we talked about Lance’s wedding, he kissed my cheek, we spent a whole day together! If only 12 year old Nikki could imagine this could happen one day. That she’d move on from writing NSYNC fan e-zines and starting writing a food blog that would lead her to filming a TV show with Joey. I still can’t believe it did.
There were parts of the day I remember so clearly – our conversations and his funny quirks, his movie quoting and his smile – but so much of it flew by, especially the cooking part. I probably said a lot of silly things. Honestly I don’t even remember. But looking forward to seeing how MFRR’s amazing crew pieces it all together.
I made some awesome breakfast recipes on the show which I can’t wait to share afterwards – My Grandma’s Jewish coffee cake, corn and blueberry waffles, whiskey slush mimosas, and antipasti breakfast pizzas. And because this show is about family and I couldn’t have done any of this – from the NSYNC e-zines days to our holiday feasts to my life in food today – without them, my family was part of this episode too. I’m SO glad they were. After all, Joey was a big part of their lives too.
Back to dreams coming true. They did in so many ways. For NSYNC, for Joey, for my family, for my passions, for my life. Thanks Joey.
Can’t wait to see the episode! AHHHHH (still can’t believe it!)
Have I mentioned I’ve been busy? Ha. But really. Work is great. I’m learning and challenging myself every day. It’s a lot but I’m feeling like something big is happening and I’m ready to see where it takes me. I’m so lucky that I was able to turn the things I love already – food, design, writing – into something I love even more at Cava. It feels incredible to love what I do and who I work with every day. Remember where I was a year ago? Funny how long ago that seems and how different I feel. If I take a second to stop moving, I might even look back and realize I’m proud of myself.
Other than work, life is a little strange. I guess I haven’t figured out what it is right now and who I am. But I’ve learned to accept that’s ok. The one good thing about this though is timing. It’s spring. And allergies aside, I honestly walk out my door every day excited about the world. The fact that giant green leaves can grow back on cold trees and we can eat the most flavorful food that comes from the ground nearby. Sure, it’s cheesy, but these are some of my favorite solo moments recently. When I find a break to take a walk through the farmer’s market or read a magazine in the park (like actually read the articles too) or make a tomato sandwich with fresh ricotta. My moments.
Some big projects aside – wedding coordinating, filming a cooking show with Joey from NSYNC, redesigning my website – most of the things I’m doing outside of work aren’t very challenging I suppose. Might not have the headspace for it. (Although I totally just marathoned the entire Dawson’s Creek series again. So that’s something right?) But one thing that has been a fun challenge is learning to use my DSLR camera. I’ve been told it’s a powerful little guy and I’m slowly uncovering it’s potential. I’m learning the technical bits at work but I’m also just pushing myself to get out and use it. We all know that’s the only way I’m going to feel more comfortable with it. Make it a habit, try different lighting, actually learn what ISO means and when it has to be adjusted.
I guess one of the things I want myself to know is that even if I’m not blogging here or baking a cake regularly or keeping my apartment clean or going on several dates a week, I’m still being creative. It just doesn’t stop. It’s not a rut. It’s something new. It’s me changing and growing up and challenging myself. It’s happening at work now…with my team, with new projects, which I couldn’t be more excited about. It’s happening a little more quietly right now. On my mornings at the market and long walks around the city. As I’m learning more about ramps, morels, little gem, and growing herbs. As I slow roast garlic. As I edit photos while listening to Coasts. While helping a friend decorate her apartment. When I make a simple tomato sandwich.
Glitter type and denim jackets and glazed doughnuts…these are a few of my favorite things today. After a busy few weeks, and a few busy ones ahead, I’m looking forward to soaking up spring this weekend. Farmer’s market, iced coffee walks, reading in the park, a glass of rosé outside. It’s the best time of year! (minus the allergies)
When I was 11 I wrote in my journal that I was feeling very confused because I really liked my new boyfriend but I felt like it was overtaking my love for NSYNC. “I have one problem though. And this is VERY hard to say. I still LOVE NSYNC but I don’t know what to say. I just feel like I’m about to grow apart from 5 GREAT GUYS.” I was torn. How could I be obsessed with two things at once? Needless to say, a few days later, I wrote that I got my NSYNC love back and I was feeling great. And clearly I haven’t grown apart from those five guys yet, even with a handful of boyfriends along the way.
So I’ve been through this before. It’s a balancing act. I can spend all day with my job that I love and still make time for my blog (and my friends, and cooking, and yoga, and exploring, and dating) which I love too. I’m going to refocus on this balance this spring. It’s the most special thing to be able to choose to what and to whom you connect with. And to have multiple passions, well, aren’t I just lucky? Those things – spending mornings in the kitchen, long walks with my dad, learning more about photography for Cava projects, knowing the It’s Gonna Be Me dance after 14 years – those are me. Live, Work, Create. Let’s do it all.